It's weird thinking that you are surrounded by so many people, but deep inside your heart you feel so alone. Lonely. That is how i feel. Honestly, when i read Hanis Zalikha's entry on Kepentingan Bestfriend, i couldn't relate any of those kelebihan to myself. Pity me, ha?
It's true, like i said before that I'm surrounded by many people, but i don't have what i called sahabat sejati. True friend. No, I'm not being demanding. I'll be good when you do the same to me. But it seems very hard for me to find a friend who can accept me for who i am. A person who tried to understand my deeds instead of judging.
And yes, i don't need a friend who changes when i change and who nods when i nod. My shadow does that much better. I need a friend who can tell me what's wrong about myself because i might not recognize it by myself. I need a friend who are not afraid to tell me the truth even it's hurt, for the sake of myself.
Oh boy, am i asking for too much? If only i can learn that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.